Thursday, July 19, 2007

just came home with my last YO (Singapore National Youth Orchestra) concert for the year.
and already pining from the withdrawal.
.
binged a little on chocolate.
and feeling only slightly better.
am seriously gonna miss going for rehearsals;
playing for concerts;
th learning;
the people;
the music.
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then again, though only a newbie of a few months, i've to leave for the exams. THE exams. darn cambridge and the blasted education system. as if singaporeans aren't zombie-ish enough. and being already 18 and having only just entered the music scene for real just totally sucks, especially if i know it's gonna be my life. curse this awareness. damn my ignorance. i can just imagine having another culture shock (again) once i've regained the liberty to live my life myself. and the first step starts immdeiately after my last paper, this i swear to myself.
.
shit.
life's just full of it.
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.
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and to think some have even had the privelege to play in there for years and years since kiddiness.
.
i'd be insane not to envy.


stomached it at
11:23 PM